[JoesHO]

I think I have a negative board persona due to lack of communication on a medium such as a board, and unless someone has met me in person, sometimes they can not tell when I am trying to be lighthearted or sarcastic ( as is in my nature in person but people get the impact and the feeling cause they do not need to guess "was he kidding" they can obviously see it )

I also think my barbaric nature that comes off sometimes is due to my core as well, and same thing once confronted in person with it people seem to have a different reaction. I will explain it liek this to try to be more clear .

I look at boards as a useful tool to discuss business, communicate with your peers, ask questions and advice and to meet or set up meetings with new people , some boards work this way some do not .

unfortunatly when I first started I was relentlessly attacked for being stupid, or new, or "the rainman as apperantly according to nick some might say in private"

I am a fighter by nature and have been my whole life, I grew up poor in a shitty neighborhood and had to learn early to fight, I was NEVER given anything but was forced to fight to make it, I was kicked out of school at 17 and on my own every since, I lost college football scholarships due to being kicked out of school for discipline problems ... I went in to the bar/nightclub business and the only skill I had was quick thinking, talking and fighting. I parlayed that into a 2K a week job and was doing well enojugh to get myself into a demolishing and salvaging business , I took that to an 800K a year business until I went bankrupt in 2001 part economy, part bad steps by me due to inexperience in business. However I fought everyday to get there both literally and figurativly with peopl always trying to take from or hold me down where they wanted to get the benifites from my abilities.

I know when the snakes are snakes and what they are up to, so when I was being attacked my natural reaction was to fight back ( that is at my core board or not )

But if you meet me in real life you see thhat I am more interested in doing sometjing together for the benifite of both partys and for everyone involved to have good business, I do not wish to fight and people that have been fighters know it is only smart to fight when necassary or attacked.

It seems though that I have a bad rep on the bords cause I will fight the powers that be and I want to see the inderdogs given opportunity ( call it background or whatever ) at the core I know that evil is in most, but I like to believe thhat good is in enough people to make a difference. funny thing is people that want to fight with me on the board, NEVER want to fight with me when they see me in person, they always pull the " hey it was just board bullshit " line and I too think it is bullshit, dravyk.

sad thing is in this biz and in many others there are those out there that do not really give a fuck if you succedd or fail as long as they can take something from you along the way.

I fear sometimes that my "bad board persona" is due to my "real person" attitude that people should be who they are and unfortunatly they are not, and on a board to serious minded business people sometimes this gets lost and then everyone becomes cynical ( myself included) and decides that all the other people are faking until they either meet them in person, or need a service that the person offers and they secretly try it out to see if the person is different than what they first tought as an only resort to get their need fiilled ( this leaves out the possible discussions of many other facest of bussiness that a person or people may be able to offer eachh other that goes unspoken ) and all of this is due to the " fake board persona bullshit"

But then again I am probably just a lunitac ranting "RAINMAN" so what the fuck do I know about anything, everyone seems to know me so well .