[Dianna Vesta]

Every morning my dogs wake me up at 5:30AM to go outside. I lie back down for an hour, burn essential oils and drift into a dreamy alpha state. This morning I had a very thought provoking revelation.

No doubt that I’m different then most women. I look back on my life and see that there were things that would have changed the course of my life and pushed me out of the mainstream. I remember being a young teen and thinking that life around me was pretty fucked up and that there was no way in hell I was going to fit into it. I spent a great deal of my life feeling like an outcast because I didn’t find the great American dream all that appealing. I felt a tremendous amount of pressure especially being a woman.

As my thoughts rambled through my head I began to wonder if it were the incidents that happened in my life that lead me to this place I’m at now or was it the experiences in my life that made it ok for me to be here today?

I remember making excuses and telling lies about what I did for a living. I feared that people wouldn’t accept me because I was a sex worker or involved in the adult industry. I even stepped away because there was a part of me that felt that I was contributing to some kind of bad planetary karma. (rolling my eyes) I stepped back in with a whole new perception after working with non-adult companies and seeing that the bullshit there was worse.

At least in the adult industry they tell you to bend over before they fuck you, right? (laughing)

Today I’m proud and when someone ask me what I do I quickly reply, “I work in the adult industry!” - I don’t say porn because right away people think you appear in movies.

What sets us all apart from other people? Is there a common thread between us all that makes it ok? Is there a characteristic we all share?

Has the industry tainted you or have you’ve grown from it? If not porn, what path would you have chosen?