I will be out of pocket for awhile

[Peaches]

I apologize for the massive cut and post, but I just wanted everyone to understand where I've been and why I will be scarce for an unspecified period of time. If you need anything, please contact gabe@wegcash.com or cory@wegcash.com

Sometime over the weekend, my son took his life while in Misawa Japan while serving in the Air Force. I don't know all the details but when I spoke to him Friday night he was very very drunk, homesick and all around depressed. I attempted to reach him all weekend with no response. I knew no one else to reach there on the weekend but many times his line was busy when I was calling so I am assuming others were also trying to reach him. When he didn't show up for work on Monday morning, they found him.

There are no words to express the devastation I feel and honestly no words of comfort will make it better. I have always said I have the best family, friends and support system anyone could ever wish for the they have been here for me either by coming to the house, via phone, email, running errands, bringing things, staying with me, or just holding me.

He's not home yet and right now there's no estimate. The AF is being very thoughtful and keeping me in contact every step of the way. The best guess is some time next week. We will have a family only honor guard ceremony and then a large memorial service within a week after that in the Atlanta area. I don't want to have it at a funeral home and there will be no casket. I want to celebrate his life, not his death.

Being a single mother with him an only child, he was my life and I will never be the same. I need to spend some time trying to figure out what I plan on doing with the rest of it.

Many of you met him and know what an incredible person he was. He was funny, smart and just the best person I've ever known. But he was clearly upset about things we'll never understand and self medicating with alcohol. I guess. I don't really know. I don't know if I ever will know.

I count many, many people in this industry as my good and dear friends and I only felt it fair to explain my silence and absence. I also thank the handful of people who kept my confidence until I was ready to make announcement.

Hold your children tight tonight. The last thing I told him was that I loved him. I can only hope and pray that he believed me.

[brand0n]

my god im so sorry.

[NickPapageorgio]

Jesus Christ Peaches I am so sorry to hear that. There is nothing I can say that will make you feel any better so I won't even try. Just know that I am thinking about you and I am very very sorry to hear of this happening in your life. If you need anyone to talk to about ANYTHING hit my ICQ 327301858 or email me nickpapageorgio@almostlucky.com or phone 7574965889.

[JoesHO]

My Prayers and thoughts go out to you Peaches.

[Billy]

Peaches me and the wife send out regards to you.. if you need anything let us know.

[Nickatilynx]

Ohhh peaches...I'm so so sorry.

Frankly , I'm crying here.

Anything youy need , for what it is worth I'm here.

My sincerest and deepest condolences

[gonzo]

Whatever you need...dont hesitate.

[The Other Steve]

Peaches - Marie and I for once have no words to express what we want to say except to tell you that we're thinking of you.

[Anthony]

Oh God, I am so sorry to hear this.

There aren't any words I can say. If there is anything I can do, I mean anything, please let me know.

[pushpills]

Very sorry to hear. Nothing I can really say to make it better, my thoughts are with you and if there's anything I can do for you I'm here for you (me and everyone else at this board).

My condolences peaches.

[cj]

my god.

Peaches .......
there are no words

we love you both and I'm sure I speak for everyone when I say we are shocked and devistated

when you are ready, we're here for you

[JR]

I am truly sorry for your loss Peaches. You certainly can rely on each and every member here for any amount of love and support that you need to help you through this time.

[sarettah]

:cryin:

[StreetRacer]

looking for the right words...can't find any. this is hard.

my condolences.

[Jace]

oh wow...i am so so so sorry peaches, if there is anytihng you need, we are all family here in atlanta and you know that, don't hesitate to call ANY of us at ANY time....we are all hear for you...atlanta and worldwide

i just don't know what to say....

[TheEnforcer]

I'm so sorry Peaches. My deepest condoloences to you. If there is anything I can do for you at all please don't hesitate to ask.

[Lisa]

Peaches that is so very very sad. I'm shocked and at a loss...how you must be feeling I have no comprehension.

Virtual hugs are crap...but they're all I have right now. Please hang in there, we love you and are thinking of you.

[Fatal Attraction]

Wow, I'm in tears! I am sooo sorry Peaches, I wish I was there to give you a hug. I'm not good at knowing what to say in situations like this. But, my heart is breaking for you!

[SykkBoy]

Peaches, I am truly devestated by your loss
as a father myself, I could never imagine having to go through with what you are going through.

I'm always available for ANYTHING you need.

[Jace]

i just can't seem to get over this....god i hope peaches is all right

[iamkathi]

My friend, do not hesitate to call on us for anything you need. That means today, tonight at 3am when you wake and can not go back to sleep... I mean anytime.

I love you and my heart breaks for you.



:cryin:

[*KK*]

Anything you need, I am here for you. We all love you, I just cant imagine this. I'm reading and re-reading and its still not sinking in.

[PornoDoggy]

There is just nothing that can be said ... my thoughts go out to you.

[Newton]

My thoughts and prayers go out to you Peaches; my sincerest condolences :(

[Bestat]

There are no words Peaches, I am truely sorry for your loss. :(

[Bell]

so so so sorry to hear that Peaches...
you are now on my prayer list...

~Bell

[SweetT]

Peaches....Sweetheart......you know how much we love you and him too. Remember the weekend on the houseboat? We had *so* much fun. He was, what? Maybe 15 - 16? I remember thinking how well behaved and respectul he was...something you don't often find in teenage boys. Do you remember how much fun it was? I do....and that's what I want to remember....and you should too. Don't spend a second wondering about the dark days because we *ALL* have them...lets remember and celebrate the bright ones!!

I know that everybody else has already said it, but I will say it again with conviction....if there is ANYTHING that you need.....ANYTHING.......ANYTHING AT ALL.....AT ANY TIME.....DAY OR NIGHT.....ANYTHING.....please let me know. I can have me or someone I know at your door in an hour or less. Anywhere that I am in the whole world, I will stop and make sure you get what you need. I can't stress this enough, sweetie.....anything, anything, anything.

WE LOVE YOU, PEACHES!!!


--T

[*KK*]

Originally posted by SweetT@Mar 29 2005, 10:33 PM
Peaches....Sweetheart......you know how much we love you and him too. Remember the weekend on the houseboat? We had *so* much fun. He was, what? Maybe 15 - 16? I remember thinking how well behaved and respectul he was...something you don't often find in teenage boys. Do you remember how much fun it was? I do....and that's what I want to remember....and you should too. Don't spend a second wondering about the dark days because we *ALL* have them...lets remember and celebrate the bright ones!!

I know that everybody else has already said it, but I will say it again with conviction....if there is ANYTHING that you need.....ANYTHING.......ANYTHING AT ALL.....AT ANY TIME.....DAY OR NIGHT.....ANYTHING.....please let me know. I can have me or someone I know at your door in an hour or less. Anywhere that I am in the whole world, I will stop and make sure you get what you need. I can't stress this enough, sweetie.....anything, anything, anything.

WE LOVE YOU, PEACHES!!!


--T
I've got the image of him from that weekend running through my mind too, T. I let him drive and he didn't have a license yet I don't believe, or else he had barely gotten one.

He's never really grown up in my mind, even when I've seen him grow up the last few years.

[Zebra]

I never got to meet him, but saw plenty of pictures and enjoyed reading stories about him.
I feel for you Peaches. I can't begin to imagine how you must be feeling. Take some of the offers on this page and let your friends be there for you. This is something that you don't need to go thru alone.

[BillPMB]

I've not read the whole thread, so my apologies for any netiquette fuck up.

Our family weeps for your loss Peaches. Above all, please don't blame yourself.

Our deepest regrets and all the love.

BillPMB & family. Bill, Alan, Lisa, Roz and various minions far and wide.

[Rolo]

:cryin:

[HoneyBlond]

I am so sorry for your loss Peaches
My thoughts are with you during this sad time :cryin:

[mojobill]

Peaches, my heart is breaking at your loss, and I have no words.... please know that you are in our thoughts and prayer's

[XXXPhoto]

So very sorry Peaches...

[Torone]

:cryin: :cryin: :cryin:

[Cleo]

I'm at a loss for words. :(

[Hell Puppy]

I'm still stunned.

For once words just aren't flowing off my fingertips.

But again, as I've already expressed privately and everyone else, especially us locals, are expressing here, if you need anything you yell.

[Richard N. Bush]

I really don't know what to say because as you said, there's really nothing any of us can say to help. Just know that I'm here if you need me.

[Bishop]

Peaches... I'm so sorry.

[VooMan]

I am really sorry, Peaches. :cryin: Anything you need, anything at all...

[Trev]

My sincerest condolences Peaches :(

Both Toni and myself are thinking of you at this most devastating of times.

[LadyMischief]

Goddess Peaches, my condolences go out to you, even though they will never make a dent in the pain and heartache you are feeling.. Losing a child is bad enough, but when it's by their own hand, the feelings can't possibly be like anything I can imagine. I'm amother too and the mere thought of something terrible happening to my children is almost more than I can bear. My heart goes out to you and if you need anything I can help with, you know where to find me.

[Forest]

omg peaches my heart breaks for you

may god bless him and you

[Vick]

Dearest Peaches,
If ever you want to talk please consider calling 410-461-2437 or if there is anything we can do or if the time comes you'd like to get away for a while our home is your home, anytime.

We all love you very much and are here for you in whatever way you need

[kath]

Peaches -

I am in shock and I just don't know what to say. I'm so sorry... the similiarities between your son and mine made me feel like I knew him even when I'd never met him and it feels like we watched him grow up over the years through you on the boards.

There's nothing anyone can say but please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.. I am so sorry.

[Opti]

My thoughts are with you Peaches.. my only memories of Clemsontiger are very positive, I've thought more than once what a wonderful son he appeared to be. No one should have to outlive a child and your plans to celebrate his life touch me deeply.

[gigi]

I'm in total shock and sadness, sweetie....I can't even begin to understand what you are going through right now. I am sooo sooo sooo sorry.

You talked about your son with such pride and joy....he truly was one very lucky boy.

I will add my help to those who've offered here.....if there is ANYTHING I can do for you PLEASE just tell me.

You have many friends in this biz, sweetie....you have always been so sweet and kind...and it's obvious I wasn't the only lucky one to be on the receiving end of that. We ARE here for you when you are ready...please don't forget that.

*BIG HUGE HUGS*

[MaDalton]

damn - i remember how excited you were when he was going to leave. i have no words for your loss - just keep in mind that he just left the material world - he will live forever in your memories. :(

[ThrobX]

Peaches,

I never met your son, but I'm sure he was top notch, because he was YOUR son. My heartfelt condolences, you are in my thoughts.

[RyanLanane]

Peaches, my most sincere condolences go out to you. I never had a chance to meet or even see pictures of your son but if he is your son I am sure he was an outstanding individual.

So few people can celebrate a life lived and have that type of attitude, our family is the same way though. It helps to remember the good times and talk with friends and any family you do have about all the great memories you have and celebrate his life. I know it is the only way my mom was able to get through her mother's death a few months ago. I learned alot of things about my grandmother in her younger days I never knew about before.

I'm glad to see you have the same attitude and I really don't know of anything I could say to make you feel better. I have a daughter myself and it would tear me away to lose her, I have no idea what you are going through and won't act like I do or ever could nor make any suggestions on how to handle your grief except rely on your friends during this very difficult time.

If you need ANYTHING Peaches, hit me up on ICQ. I'm around all the time and have no problems talking to you on the phone, ICQ, or if you need help with any arrangements you can't bring yourself to make.

I know I haven't been around for a few years Peaches, but you were always so outgoing every time I stopped by over the years and I believe you are the one who helped me get back into the business again this time working with Andy - you took time out of your busy schedule to answer a nobody's questions.. Shows me your generosity is unparalleled.

I just wish there was more I could do.

Ryan

[nlphoto]

Oh my God Peaches, I am SO sorry to hear this... I just don't have any words... :(

[Dravyk]

I just heard. I'm in shock, total shock. And I'm all misty and trying to think what to type without sounding stupid. Um, Peaches, you have friends here, a great many of them, myself included. Anything I can do please don't hesitate to ask. We're here for you and as Tony said there's a lot of love and support here for you in any way possible. My prayers go out to you, Peaches.

[Lee]

Peaches if there is anything, and i do mean anything that Gary or I can do for you over the coming months do not hesitate to ask us.

We were both so sorry to hear ofyour loss :(

[MikeW]

Originally posted by Peaches@Mar 30 2005, 12:33 AM
Many of you met him and know what an incredible person he was. He was funny, smart and just the best person I've ever known.
I'm utterly speachless and feel horrible for not checking the board sooner and finding your post. Peaches, you have my deepest sympathy for I can't begin to imagine what you must be going through. I met your son on a couple of occassions and I can only echo your sentiments above ...

[Steady]

My Deepest Sympathy! God Bless!!
Steady :(

[Sausage]

This has to be one of the sadest posts I have ever read. :(
I wont even pretend to know what you are going through. By the looks of it you have an amazing online network of friends who can hopefully help you get through this.

[girlgeek]

I don't post much, but had to come out of lurkerdom to offer this:

Peaches,

We are so sorry for your loss. I cannot imagine what you are going through and hope that the outpouring of love and support you are getting from here is providing you with some comfort at this extremely difficult time.

You spoke so highly of your son, and the pride and love you had for him was apparent. There was no way he didn't know this.

Our deepest condolences.

[Evil Chris]

Peaches... you don't deserve this pain. Nobody does.
I don't know how to express how I feel for you now.
I can only say I'm so sorry this has happend.
Use your support system for everything it's got.
Get the help you need and take care of yourself.
Don't blame yourself. Please be strong.

My most sincere condolences.
Christopher

[venturi]

My deepest condolences to you, Peaches. I have no other words.

[Yug]

Peaches, I am so saddened by your loss, my deepest sympathies

[Meat]

Thats just really sad news Peaches:(((

Sincere condolences to you from myself, Aga and the netponders.

[squirtingcarly]

Peaches, my heart aches for you and if there is anything I can do please let me know. I love you and will hold you in my prayers. I know that I am not on the boards very much, but I am always here for family.

[Red]

Peaches, I am so sorry to hear this. My deepest condolences.

[dokk]

Peaches baby....

I uh.. can't seem to easily get over, around or past this....
Once I break bread with someone in my home.. it's hard to let go.

;-(

[Sabby]

My prayers are with you Peaches.


love,
Sabby

[stargaze]

Our hearts go out to you Peaches!

:cryin:

[Naughty]

Damn Peaches.

This is the first thread ever to bring tears to my eyes. I wish you all the best, from the bottom of my heart and beyond.

Paul.

[baddog]

I just now heard about this, and I can not even begin to imagine the pain.

My prayers are with you Peaches.